Being My Own Valentine Every now and then experiences will occur in my personal life that shows me I am a work in progress.

To heal totally in one day is impossible; to heal a little more each moment is progress. To understand one day is impossible to understand a little more each moment is progress.

I want it all and I want it now. (I find humour in this flame of passion). Eagerness can cause great big messes. Learn it from a plate of spaghetti if need be. I must eat one mouthful at a time; unlike a garbage can I cannot eat the entire serving in one BIG BITE. Isn’t it great we have come far enough in understanding the digestive system that we do not fear what we will do when the food before us is fully eaten? We know it has a place and a duty to energize our cells and continue our life.

I am going to look at life in this manner. Healing a little more each moment, understanding and absorbing every realization of who I am one at a time trusting that each experience feeds my soul, energizes my life and places me where I am truly meant to be.

I was around 5 years old the first time I gave to the best of my ability in an unhealthy way. We were piling wood for the long winter ahead. I wanted to carry the biggest pieces and build the biggest pile. I wanted recognition and praise. I wanted to be noticed. He never said a word…. I was not satisfied.

Each action in my life I want to notice and no longer seek the notice and approval of others. Nine xs out of ten it will not be enough, it will not be noticed. I suddenly see how I have spooned my plate of spaghetti onto the plates of others. I have grown hungry and lost the ability to find goodness in my own actions.

I am taking care of myself. Not out of selfishness but out of simply understanding the life that has been given to me is for me. The experiences are food and nourishment to my soul. To grow and continue to live I must feed my own soul. This in return will feed the souls of others.

I will notice even when no one else notices...

I will not fear.

(My thoughts on co dependence and being my own valentine)

Happy Valentines Day -the greatest love you can ever receive is loving yourself. It matters how you see yourself.

Written by ~ Colleen C Smith ~